Hey guys! I am so terrible about writing. I'm sorry, I'll be better! Life can get a little intense sometimes.
Update on the Mission: My papers are FINALLY in Salt Lake City!!! Today marks two full weeks of waiting, so hopefully this week is the week!! I'm pumped! I can't wait to serve the Lord and his people. A lot of people have been asking me where I want to go and here's my truly honest answer: I am happy going anywhere. I came to the realization a few weeks ago that it really isn't about where you serve, but how you serve. There are people all over the world who are looking for Christ and his eternal love, and I just want to share that message. Of course there are places I want to go above others, but I would rather keep reminding myself that I will go where God wants me to go.
The past few weeks I have felt Satan's influence in the world around me more and more. As I fight to put myself in a place where I can constantly feel the spirit and be worthy of my mission, I feel him fighting just as hard to draw me into sin and temptation. I recognize the negativity more in my life lately in social media, movies, and just everyday living, more than I have ever recognized before. I have noticed myself thinking unrighteous things, or unkind things about others and sometimes I feel like I am inadequate to serve the Lord.
But, a phrase from one of my favorite songs comes to mind every time I consider going down the wrong path:
I wish I had an explanation for why this particular part of the song comes to mind, but I don't. My only explanation is that the spirit knows I am most touched by music, and that this particular phrase would truly influence me. So, in the time I have had to think about this phrase, I've gathered a few thoughts I want to share.
First, the word bind and how truly powerful that idea is; to be bound to god. In the dictionary it says, "tie or fasten (something) tightly, cohere or cause to cohere in a single mass." I think that this has a lot of meaning. Our purpose in this life is to become more like God and make it back to live with him again. To do this, we must bind oureselves to God. When we bind ourselves to him, Satan has no power over us to drag us down.
There is a scripture that says:
This is exactly what is means to bind our wandering hearts to him. As natural human beings we are drawn to doing wrong and making mistakes. God gave us our free agency so we could choose between right and wrong and have our faith tested. So it is up to us to decide to continue on his path, or let our heart wander. God knows the intentions of each of our hearts. We cannot hide from him, we must put off the natural man.
I am not afraid that I am not worthy to serve a mission. I know I am. Satan would like me to think I will never be worthy, or never be good enough, but I know from reading my scriptures, saying my prayers, and binding my heart to God, that I will be a good missionary. I hope that as I continue my journey in this life, I will wander less.
This week I am thankful for music. I am thankful that God gifted me with the talent of singing, and the knowledge to understand how to read and write music. I am thankful for the songs that make me feel the spirit and turn me closer to god, and for the songs that make me smile and do a little jig :P. Here's a song that's been a favorite for a very long time, and my favorite group, Pentatonix, just happened to cover it beautifully in their new album! Go check it out :)
Thank you for all your kind words and prayers as I wait to get my mission call, I really really appreciate it! If you have any guesses on where I'll go, comment them down below, I'd love to hear!
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